I write this at 3am on Friday the 23rd of February but I’m still counting this as Thursday because today has been very long, and admittedly I feel like I’ve been awake for days.
So the library didn’t happen today. Of course it didn’t, my friend flaked out on me and I wasn’t in the mood to go all the way into town so early in the morning. These are all excuses, I’m sure you’re aware. I did get work done, however, as I’ve made some significant progress with my French and the only thing I have left to really do is memorise my IRP, which I can just sense will be a very last minute task. That’s okay. I finished the rest of my French homework and I’ve decided that tomorrow I will tackle all my biology homework.
I feel like I’ve been working for such a long time but the amount of progress I’vlie made doesn’t seem to correspond with how long I spend chipping away at it. Either I’m procrastinating a lot more than I think (I admit I procrastinate a lot, but honestly, I do get work done too, I don’t want to discount the hard work that I put in) or the sheer workload I have is weighing heavy on me. Either way, morale has been low recently and I don’t feel like I’ve been sleeping well much.
Tomorrow (technically today) is Friday which means the dreaded college starts on Monday. My brother also goes back to Bulgaria today which is a bit sad but I’ve been arguing with him recently so maybe it will decrease the tension in this house! I think I’ve come to associate my brother leaving with the coming of an extended period of academic involvement which is why it seems to feel worse than just my brother going again.
However, I did volunteer today with the local charity group that runs events for young disabled people, which was nice. It’s crazy that some of the most marginalised people in society are some of the most welcoming and accepting, purely because they don’t want other people to feel the same way they do.
I’ve been thinking a lot recently about human existence and the occurrence of your actions being the deciders for what happens to you. I am such a firm believer in the idea of karma, even if it may not seem direct or even remotely connected to you, I think people that propagate and perpetuate evil ideas will get what’s coming for them, whether it be in this life or the next.
I’ve really strayed from my focus but I wanted to share some of my thoughts and feelings as of late.
My study goals for tomorrow:
– Both biology task sheets on repsiration
– Notes on the whole respiration topic
-If I have time then I really need to get started on maths too, I still have 3 papers left to do at least, and then a huge range of practice questions in preparation for my C4 mock on Wednesday. Time is just flying by!
Also a quick note, I realised earlier that while my blog is up and running with its most important feature (the content!), I have not put much time into constructing a brand or an image around it or myself just yet. I thank you for your continued patience, as I can understand that it’s not really the type of attention grabbing blog that you often see. Regardless, that wasn’t my ultimate aim and my desire to blog myself into oblivion about my studying is being fulfilled very nicely. I would like to think there will come a time soon that I jazz it up a bit, make it nicer to see, but for now, it is exactly what I need it to be.
Thank you all, wishing you a blessed Friday for tomorrow (today)!