Hello, my friends! I am alive and kicking, though it would perhaps be a push to say that I’m thriving in these bitterly cold winter weeks that have passed.
Since we last spoke, I have completed my first semester at medical school and really, it’s been a case of going through the motions to get to the end. In terms of getting my first taste of the uni experience, it’s been great! I think the emotional exhaustion that sixth form gave me really put me off education to the point where I was dreading going back to studying, but studying is really all I’ve known throughout my life and being in the kind of environment where everything is so interesting and meticulous gives me a sense of familiarity in the most positive sense.
I’ve made some absolutely fantastic friends, who are wholesome and genuine and fun, and the prospect of spending the next five years getting to know even more people on the course is honestly quite exciting. Manchester is heavily PBL-based and it definitely took time getting used to it, but I think I’m figuring out a decent routine for how to get things done. Study-wise, I feel like I’ve learnt so much about myself and how I study best, but the real challenge lies ahead, during this winter break, where revision becomes key before exams.
University is treating me a lot better than sixth form did. For some reason, I think my mental state during the two years of sixth form was not very stable and in hindsight, I feel like I was trying to force the happiness and positivity. I had the most wonderful friends and support systems during sixth form too, but I think that just goes to show how significantly other factors can affect your mental health. Since starting uni, I feel a lot less pressure for some reason, although the journey I’m embarking on is definitely so much grander. I’m sure my thoughts and feelings will fluctuate in the lead-up to exams, but I really feel like I’m in a good place in my life right now.
Almost every aspect of the actual course has been enjoyable so far, in terms of content and despite my qualms with the sheer knowledge and information we have to know, I can appreciate that independence is expected of us now (because we are old and mature, supposedly!)
Commuting seemed to become more and more of a chore as I progressed through the semester, especially this past week, as I’ve been feeling so ill, and the thought of the long walk through town is a burden more often than not. Regardless, I’m dealing with it because there’s nothing more I can do about this. Besides, I think the gloomy weather amplifies the magnitude of ill-feelings towards the journey and I’m really looking forward to summer when the walk is more an opportunity to appreciate the beauty of the city I live in.
I’m still so surprised at how quickly this semester has flown by! It’s such a cliché and I probably say this all the time but time flies by so quick, it’s scary.
My plans for the rest of this weekend involve creating an extensive study plan to really get on top of revision and hopefully relax a little bit from the intensity of the past few weeks. I feel like I’ve been neglecting this blog a little bit due to the fact I feel like really don’t have time to always be writing, but the reality honestly is that you have to make time for the things you’re interested in. I sincerely hope I can be a bit more active on here in the future and document my life as it happens.
Thank you all for reading, I hope your life has been going well and you’re thriving with everything you’re doing.