Hi everyone! Hope you’re all doing well, excelling in every aspect of your life. This is going to be a very freestyle piece of writing with no semblance of a plan, just some stuff I want to reflect on and summarise in words. I feel like I do some kind of yearly reflection every single year on my birthday, and this time it’s a bit less structured and a bit more honest.
So, I just had my 21st birthday this week and, like every single year, it hits me like a ton of bricks how blessed I am to have the friends and family that I have. Not that I’m not already aware of that fact in day-to-day life, but just being able to meet my friends and spend a luxurious amount of time with them reminds me of how good the people are that I surround myself with. This isn’t something that’s only become abundant in my life this year, and actually I would say that for maybe the past few years, I have been surrounded by fantastic people, but the passage of time comes with more opportunities to develop more meaningful relationships with people, whether I’ve known them for years on end, or whether they are relatively new in my life.
Also, I’ve been thinking about my abilities and the inevitable progression in them that has come with another year of education. We are babies on the wards but learning skills like venepuncture and cannulation is so exciting and scary for me. I think back to a year ago and if someone had thrust me into this environment that I’m in right now, I would’ve been frozen with fear. I know this is what comes with practice and time, but it has become significant to me this year just how important practice and time are. The things I did hesitantly and tentatively the first two years of medical school are the same things I do confidently now, not even questioning my ability.
I know all of this is so basic and obvious, but how far I’ve come is maybe something that only I can truly bask in the glory of because I feel like I can’t explain in words the state I was in before compared to the state I am in now. This is my way of saying that difficult things are difficult, but until you push yourself to continue doing them, there will always be an element of fear to your actions.
Furthermore, on thinking about some of the achievements I’ve made this year, I think it’s only fitting that we talk about this blog. In sometime early summer, I made this a priority in my life (although I can’t lie, lockdown was a big driving force in this decision). Since then, I’ve made consistent weekly posts about all sorts of things, and put the time and effort into my blog that I’ve always wanted to.
I will be the first to admit that not every blog post I’ve put up has been of the finest quality, but the consistency has been more important to me, and I’m so glad I’ve managed to maintain that, despite having started university again. Something I realised a long time ago, but never put into practice until recently, was the concept that when you truly want to do something, you will make the time for it. I have not let myself use the excuse “I don’t have time” because I should really be saying “it’s not something that I want to make time for”.
Another thing I want to mention is exercise, and how I spent so many months of my year making that a priority, leading me to become the fittest I’ve ever been, despite the sedentary lifestyle associated with lockdown. I have slipped off that a little bit, but I know I will be back on it soon because it’s something I want to make time for and something I value immensely.
I’ve rambled so much, but I feel like I’m at a time in my life where things are no longer stagnant. I genuinely feel like I learn so much every day, both about myself and the world around me. I want to take this opportunity to remind myself (and you) how young we are and how we don’t need to have anything figured out yet. It’s okay to take things as they come.
Here’s to another great year!